It’s been a while.

A lot of things happened and I know Jasmine is waiting for the next post. 😊

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After 2 weeks of grief and roller coaster ride of emotions, I never expected that you’ll leave a piece of you inside my heart. I thought that I’ll easily forget you after i have decided to not like you and to stay as friends.

I tried to act cool during the first week after my birthday.
I never thought that happiness has its limit.
6 days
The first week was awkward. Why? I don’t know.

I’ve consulted my bestfriends about this matter and they all ended up saying that I’m just overthinking stuffs.
To be honest, I felt that I had a special place in your heart because of the way you talked to me and the way you treated me. WOW. What happen?

I tried, I really really tried to make things return to the ‘old’ things we usually we do before my birthday.

Do you know what? I miss the ‘view’.

I understand. You’re the type of person who’s very focus in studying. But dude, try to feel your environment!

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I felt awkward after my birthday week. Everytime I look directly in your eyes, I quickly look away, I tried to avoid you for me to somehow breathe but I’m still holding on to the letter you gave me so I decided to KILL THE FEELINGS just like what Dane told me to do.

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Second week, I was so hyper. I removed the malice and butterfly I feel whenever I’m with you. My blockmates are shipping you to another girl in class but just like what I have said, I already killed the feelings…
That’s what I thought.

WHY!? SERIOUSLY WHY?

When you’re around, I feel nothing.
When you’re not around, my mind is occupied by you.

WHY?

I became jealous for no good reason. You’re not even talking to me the way we used to. You now have a new set of friends. It’s painful to see and accept the truth & reality.

Did you know that you’re so handsome with that stressful and haggard look of yours?
I like the way you carry your bags under your eyes.
I don’t care even if you didn’t took a bath because you’ve been awake all night.

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I am acting as a friend. Caring. Supportive. True.
Just please, please atleast appreciate what I am doing.

I don’t know what am I feeling right now.

tayskitty

catsaresoocool:

ED FUCKING SHEERAN RECORDED THIS ON MY PHONE YESTERDAY BC MY FRIEND WAS GOING TO GET GROUNDED BC WE STAYED REALLY LATE TO MEET HIM AND HES A FUCKING ANGEL AND HES SO SWEET AND NAICMWJKSD